August 2011
2 posts
You're fake too, hahahahahahahaha!
Who would have guessed? Lololololololol, this is so funny first her now you! You’re such a jackass bastard! You are not so slick and neither is she. You think you got away with this? Well, you know what you have and honestly I don’t give a f**kin Sh*t anymore. You guys make a great team trying to destroy me. You guys did. But luckily I knew how to put myself back together. (:
Well,...
You Two.
You two neeeeeeed to go away. I see you guys toooo much in my life already. See you guys every freakin damn day. I mean dang go away. R&M
May 2011
2 posts
WTF Man!
Make up your fuckin mind! ARE YOU GONNA FUCKIN STAY OR ARE YOU GONNA FUCKIN LEAVE AGAIN! Cause really that’s just total bullshit. You either stay or go and when you go you don’t come back. That’s usually how it goes. Why can’t you get that in your head? It hasn’t even been a month yet and when you come you don’t even say sorry, you alway say “I miss...
Oh yeah, Really, Oh yeah!?
Since I’m a Muslim it is scary to be in a relationship with me. Really, is that so.. You seemed to be totally fine with it about a year when you told your friends and stuff. But You’ve changed a whole lot. I know that person I fell inlove with is in there somewhere inside but I just can’t wait for him anymore. You told the reason you always come back is because you still love me...
April 2011
1 post
So, this is them. They’re my dad’s whole other life. We are only the smallest piece of it. But oh well, dad’s happy. I should be too, right? So. Yay, I’m super happy for him.
We had a conversation yesterday.
Mom went to go by some crackers for Fahasana.
Dad says “Where’s mah’” I say “Went to buy crackers for your kid.” meaning I...
March 2011
14 posts
ewrdtfyuhip;[p./'
I feel so fuckin Ugly right now that I don’t want to leave anymore. But when I leave I have to wear make up.
I feel so bad.
Hunter always picks on me and Of course I say “Shut Up.”, “Leave me alone”, “Go away.” , and sometimes hit him. But Today he decided to call me Pretty. And I said “Shut up, don’t mess with me today.” and The person right next to me was like “He just said you looked pretty, hows that messing with you.” And I think he’s mad...
Since the night he left, I’ve been waking up at 3am and I’ll start to cry.
Today
Well, Tyson lied. He didn’t delete my number but I deleted his but I knew his area code so I knew it was him. And it was two days after he left. But he came back and asked me what I thought about him coming to Washington. And Of course I said What about school. And he said Spring break. I said It’s choice if you want to come or not. And he took that the wrong way and said I wont then...
WhatTheFuckinFuck!
What the fuckin is my life surrounding by!? Fucking Guys, WhatTheFuckinFuck! 2days before Jeed leaves Tyson comes. When Tyson leaves Manu comes to keep me company. When Manu leaves Tyson comes back. And NOW, when Tyson Finally Leaves (for good hope this time. He says he’s gonna delete my number.) Manu comes back. I mean WhatTheFuckinFuck, Why? Fuck.
So, I’m off my crutches. Yay! right? Yuppers! (: But I have to wear the brace for two more weeks. But after that I aint even done yet! After that, they are gonna give me a more secure supportive brace. Yay me right. Ugh, greaaat. Now I’m gonna be waking like a freak up and down the stairs. Slow too. Great right? Oh well, at least I’m not totally injured. I gotta stay positive....
I am such a creeeeeeper!
I need to stop before he finds out. Aaahh, haha. :/
I am not a Liar, you are.
So don’t be accusing me of lying to you when right from the start all I’ve told you were the truth. And all you’re lame ass excuses were of course lies. So, Fuck you if you don’t believe me. And don’t fuckin Whatever me, you know how much I fuckin hate that. Don’t fuckin talk to me if you’re gonna be like that.
You're a basturd.
Don’t text me, I told you so many times not to. And you still do. What the fuck is you’re problem, what are you trying to prove?
Last words to you. (text)
“I can’t do us anymore. I’m sorry I just can’t. Please don’t text back, that’ll just make it harder for me. Just don’t text me at all anymore, please. I love you but I can’t do this anymore. Thanks for all the smiles and happiness but I can’t go through this anymore. Bye. Just don’t text back please. Thanks, Bye.”
And you text back...
I’ve been lying waaaay to long to my friends because of you. I know its my fault for lying to them but its what you do and how you act that I have to lie to them. I don’t know why it’s so hard for me to get over you. I went through ALL our textes and I mean ALL of them. I read it over and over again. We are like so freakin disgusting. I don’t know why you talk to me or I...
February 2011
7 posts
How the hell do you know that.
You better not be spreading shit around. That shit aint any of your fuckin business. It aint mines either. You’re waaaaaay younger than me, so I can’t do shit to you. But honey, keep your fuckin mouth shut please, cause that aint even your business to tell. And it probably aint even true. Kay buddy. Thanks.
Just leave me the fuck alone!
Uhm, really. I gave you a decent fuckin answer and you be a bitch saying something totally different. Wow, you fuckin stupidass bitch. I love you in all but you’re so fuckin annoying as hell. Just come back and talk to me when you decide to fuckin grow the fuck up. Alright, thanks. BYE!
Can I...
Choke you. Stab you in the eye. Kick you in every part of your body. Punch you in the fuckin mouth. CAN I JUST KILL YOU!?
I mean you don’t even deserve to live. Astagfirrallah, that I’m saying this. But what you did to me, you fuckin killed me. I couldn’t even believe that you did that. I NEVER thought that you’d ever do that. Like really, when I saw you today and you...
Baby girl.
Figure this out, you aint the center of the universe. Not a lot of people care about you. Pst, I wouldn’t. I mean you come up with a new story everytime you come up to us, when we know we’ve already heard this story before from a friend. Why are you trying to be sooo much like her? Dude, just be mature and be your fuckin self and grow the fuck up. You think you are so Mature, but to...
I got my Closer. :DD
All I needed was him to tell me the truth about the “Other” girls. He’s told me today and all of sudden all that weight of hatred, distroyful, and depressing feeling floated off. I felt so much better. He will ALWAYS be my First Love. But I hope the next one is Worth my tears and all.
January 2011
18 posts
Oh Gosh.
I think I’m trying to replace Tyson with Manu. I mean, I talk to him a lot more than I usually would. Fuck dude, I hella miss Tyson. There seriously something really fuckin wrong with me. I just wish he could die, and I can move on.
“Babe babe babe babe babe babe baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby baby babe...”
– Fuck you, yeah right asshole, jackass, fatass, dumbass mother fucker! You wasted like a minute of my time with that message but you wasted a 60 or 90 days of my LIFE. Thanks, now I can’t take it back you Fuckin Bipolar Bitch.
Your textes.
I go through them almost EVERYDAY. And I saw how sweet you can get, but I saw how BIG of a JACKASS you were too. I swear you are a Bipolar Bitch. When I miss you soo much but when I get to the Jackass part of you, that me missing you is Gone. You Fuckin Bipolar Bitch. You Leave me the Fuckk alone.
And now after that happening..
I wont settle for anything less than;
He has to be Muslim; Because he knows the limit where to stop. He knows the religion and hopefully follows it.
Be committed in our Relationship; I have to fully trust him, and NO CHEATING!
Be trustworthy and honest; Be honest with me even if it hurts me really bad. I can honestly take it.
Be caring; Take care of me when I need him too. Talk when I have a...
CONFESSION
When I was with Tyson Harvey;
I was a gullible stupid ass BITCH.
I was a stupid girl that fell for his shit.
I was a 16 year old girl that wanted someone to love, to be with, to have butterflies for.
Didn’t want to loose him. So, I acted so stupid, and now it scarred my life.
I HATE YOU!
What the fuckin fuck is wrong with me, why in the hell can I not for get over your fuckin dumbass. I was fuckin INLOVE with you. You broke my fuckin heart. I know I shouldn’t ever say this to someone but I feel that you deserve what I have to say. I HATE YOU AND YOU SHOULD FUCKIN DIE! I fell for a nasty ugly lookin piece of trash like you, I can’t even believed it. Everytime you told...
There are many Indians in Arizona today.
Really? Really? This the first thing I saw on my work sheet today. I can’t believe I’m not over the fuckin piece of trash. He treated me like crap and I feel like I miss him? What the fuck is that. All I did was Love him, and all he did was lied, cheated, knock up a girl, made me seem like the bad person. You know, I was wondering what the hell I did wrong for days and days, and two or...
11/28/10
Him: Hey my phones about to die:/ my charger broke. (right after a great convo at 2 in the morning.(texting.)
Me: Aaaww, :/
Him: Sooo anytime its going to die. I'll just let you go to sleep for school tomorrow. goodnite. Love you.
Me: Kay, goodnight Love you too.
11/30/10 at 11: 32pm
Him: Guess you didn't need me all day, hope you have a good week. peace out:/
Me: Noooooo, I just thought you didn't have your phone cause you said your charger broke. The whole time I wasn't talking to you, I kept saying "Oh my gosh, I miss him." (And I was, the whole I couldn't get him out of my head.)
Him: Lie!
Me: I am not lying, why would I lie about that.
Him: Lie. i will just go so you can have the best time of your life.
Me: (I sent him a blank message by mistake.)
Him: Bye. Peace out. got school tomorrow. just think i dont have a charger or something stupid. bye dont text back.
Me: Really? Your the one that told me that your phone was dying and your charger broke. Fine, whatever..
Him: What if i bought a new one! but yup you dont need me bye.
Me: I thought you would have texted me and told me. But I guess not.
Him: Bye, you should of knew but nope. bye have a good week.
Me: Tell me, how would I have known you got a new one. Kay, fine. Bye..
Him: How am i texting you! with a phone right? So that means I have a new phone. or charger
Me: Well, I didn't know you had a new phone.
Him: If I didn't text you all day that means i dont have a charger.
Me: Well, I'm sorry dang. Stop bitching at me.
Him: yup i be goooing now for good cut down!:/
Me: Kay, fine. Whatever.
Him: Yupp. never hear from me ever. dont need me ANYWAYS bye:(
Me: Are you serious? I do need you, I can't stand a day without thinking or missing you. Thats what I was trying to tell you but you kept saying "Lie". But if you wanna go then fine.
Him: :( dont like bitching at you. so im outtie.
Me: Kay, whatever then.
Him: Yup.
Me: Okay..
Him: u can delete my number. dont need a BITCHGUY in your phone book. poof Im gone
Me: Your not a bitch guy, okay. I'm sorry for saying that you were bitching at me, I just had no clue you got a new phone or whatever, I'm sorry..
Him: watever bye i am a bitchGUY peace thanks for making my day FML!
Me: I'm soooorrry, and no, your not. Okay. I'm a bitch for saying that you were.
Him: no comment BITCHGUY is going to disappear now bye im Dead to you.
Me: Cause you know I am right huh? And your not dead to me.
Him: right about me BEING a bitch! Yeahh. dead. imma stop texting back after this. bye hope you don't run into any BITCHguys like this bitchass ME! Bye.
Me: No, what the hell, I meant me being a bitch by saying your bitching out on me. Your not stop saying that okay. Don't put yourself down, you know how much I hate that. Okay so stop, but okay byee..
Him: FML farewell
Me: Kay..
Kept me up til 3 in the morning just to break up with me. Really? Fuck you bitch. This was all a skeem cause of the girl you cheated on me with and knocked her up.
That's exactly how its gonna happen. :/
Me: Can I talk to you for a sec, I got to tell you something.
Him: Sure, what is it?
Me: Kay, please don't hate me for this..
Him: Hate you? What would ever make me hate you?
Me: This, what I'm about to tell you.
Him: Well, tell me. And I promise nothing in the world could ever make me hate you.
Me: Don't make promises you can't keep.
Him: Babe, you're scaring me, And I promise you I can keep that promise. Now, what is it?
Me: Again, don't make it if you can't keep it.
Him: What is it? Tell me.
Me: _________________(I tell him and I'm really terrified that he'll hate me.)
Him: What!
Me: I..
Him: No, I heard you, I just can't believe it. And when was this..
Me: The second time I took Tyson back.
Him: You're kidding, right?
Me: No, why would I kid about something like this?
Him: I don't know, to me mad?
Me: Why would I want to make you mad? I just want to be truthful to you.
Him: ----------------------------------------------(and he shuts me down)
Fuck you!
I absolutely hate you guys, ‘nough said.
HIM. Fuck, I gotta keep my minds off of guys....
I mean he’s totally not a bad guy. It’s just I need to get my mind off guys. The thing is that Every night since last weekend I’ve been having different dreams but about the same thing. Me telling him what I did but in different ways. When I tell him, he starts out surprised thinking that I’m totally lying but when he realizes it wasn’t a lie he thinks and thinks, and...
D:
I feel so freakin FAT. When I wear my Jeans, they’re so tight. I feel like there gonna explode. Fuck dude. I need to loose weight.
Bitch.
You think I’m fat huh, that’s why you were smiling when I told my friend that I needed to loose or buy bigger jeans. You were smiling, but I saw you laughing through your eyes. You looked back a couple times, you don’t think I can loose weight huh, well bitch. I’m gonna prove you wrong. Don’t laugh at me, you don’t even know me anymore, so shut fuck up....
NEVER.
I will Never, never, never find the right guy for me.
Especially after what I did, I don’t even think the guys that I like will ever go for me. I mean I wouldn’t even go for a girl like me if I was a guy. I was so stupid. I need to wash my Stupidity out. The thing is, I can wash my stupidity out, but I can never wash what I did out. I know, some people are like “The right guy...
December 2010
17 posts
Oh momma.
I know you do your eyebrows but your mustache? Mom, I see nothing there. Your just worried dad will leave for that other wife of his. She aint even that cute. Momma, your my role model. Don’t be ruining it by trying to Win Dad back. Dad is a fucking dumbass for cheating on you. And a lady half his age. Mom, you are the bestest. She has NOTHING on you! You are WAY better than her. I love you,...
I bet..
I bet half or ALL of the people on formspring think I’m a dumbass. Yeah, most of the time I ALWAYS say “I don’t give a shit what people think or say about me.” And I don’t but I care if its people care about that’s saying or thinking all those things. And most likely like 3/4th of the people there I care about have a formspring and possibly following me....
That's it, I'm done!
That’s it, I’m done. I’m so fuckin done. I’m serious! I’m just fuckin done with everything! Guys are officially GONE to me. Their vanished, banished from my life, their just fuckin gone to me. I guess Tyson will be my LAST boyfriend. I try and I try but I always get hurt. I’m done getting hurt all the time. ALL guys are GONE from my life. No more Broken Hearts....
Kay, no. I quit.
I quit because I’m falling in to quickly like how I used to with the other guys and they turned out to be actually a total jerk, they were sweet at first but that was just a way to rule me in but when I got to know them. I mean really know them for more than 2 weeks, they showed their true colors. The right girl will change them, I thought I was their right girl but I guess not. But the...
I want to, I want to, I want to.....
Click on you so bad but I don’t want to be annoying to you. I seen you on every night since you last clicked on me. And every one of those night, I wanted to click so bad. But, I’m scared that you’ll be quickly annoyed of me. And another reason is because I wouldn’t know what to talk about, I always have trouble with that. I hella wanna talk to you though. Sometimes,...